20/20

Everyone always wants 20/20 vision.

However, I know that most if not all people don't have 20/20 vision about events in their lives until after the fact. When you can look back and say to yourself or others I know why that took place, what lessons were learned and why the outcome was what it was. I know that there are times in my life that I would like to know what is going to happen and when and have that 20/20 vision. I know however, that I will not have it. There are so many things that are up in the air right now in my life. There is a new school year, new tests to take, new professors to get used to, the possibility of boys or a boy, the possibility of new majors and new friends and roommates.

I know that 5 years from now I'll look back and ask myself why I was so concerned about the little stuff that doesn't matter. I keep telling myself that my life will be fabulous in the future and that I need to stop sweating the small stuff.

It's like that saying... I wish I had known then what I know now. I'm sure that's what I'll be saying in a couple of years. I want to know the future and how it turns out for me. But I can't know that now. It would ruin the opportunity for me to have my agency. I know it wouldn't change anything if I knew how things ended up but at times I feel like it would make decisions easier.

So the point in this blog is, that 20/20 vision I'm sure is a great thing. As nice as that might be at times I know that I truly don't want it. I like the fact that I have my agency to make my own choices and I know that I'm always being watched over. Nothing will go terribly wrong in my life as long as I do what I know is right.